lost or found?

well, i'm back...in williston...the apartment is much smaller then anticapted. but we'll make the best of it. we dont have internet there yet. soon, hopefully.

i find myself really missing certain people...im torn about that feeling, missing. on one hand, its a good thing cause you have something that u care enough about to miss...on the other hand, missing something hurts alot. hmmm

i was thinking in the car on the way down here...about being lost or found. i know in the past few years i've changed...(hopefully for the better) but the thing is that i dont know if i found myself, like discovered who i really am. or if i lost who i was, who i'm supposed to be.

idk, maybe they both kind of go together in way...dilemma

i look hot in rubber gloves

last night, last night was a good time. i started out the evening being BORED outta my mind after my parents made my sister come home (due to the fact that she had vb this a.m.) but i trudged on til about 12 20 when louis called.

louis decided he wanted to dye his hair black (i still maintain he's copying me, since i did this same thing about a year ago...tsk tsk) but anyway, we call up chris and bryce and head out to walmart. now there was a good time...

we were just wondering about, messing around. and bryce and i happen upon the FebreezeAuto. so of course i make an attempt to spray him with it. which births the idea of a good ol' western showdown or whatever they're called. so chris supplied the classic cowboy movie whistle ("dun dun dun, wa a wa a wa"...is that good? or..no? idk i tried) and louis let us know when to to draw. needless to say, i was victorious. bryce claimed to have left his safety on...but hey, come prepared.

then chris found this hat, its like a green trucker hat with this clear little pocket on the front of it so you can put pictures in it. the boys then proceeded to brainstorm possible picture pocket ideas. louis put this outfit on (hat & vest combo) that for some reason made him look like a total creaper...so we thought a pic of that would probably be cute

so yeah we head back to my house at around 3 30 i spose. and after louis shaves everything but the mustache that bryce and chris convinced him to keep, i proceeded to dye his hair blueblack, which is the color he selected. after i finished with him, i was like "hey, theres enough left here to do someone else" and of course we talk bryce into being that someone else.

in the end, last night was a fun night and the boys ended up lookin HOT . job well done.



oh oh, sidenote: andra and i finished the first season of the OC. joy! now we just have to wait til the 23rd so the second season comes out and we can continue her education.

my summer teen blockbuster

so i have returned in one piece from my little adventure to iowa. there would be WAY to much to get into on here, and to be quite frank i just dont have the energy. but i'll let ya'll in on some of what i am calling "my summer teen blockbuster" (andra might be the only one who gets that...)

>made it ALL the way to cresent, IA without gettin lost (true its pretty much a straight 7.5 hr shot down i29, but still) which would be great if cresent was my final destination, but it wasnt. council bluffs was...the same council bluffs that is pretty much adjacent to omaha. so neway, i miss my exit and end up in the creighton medical center parking lot...then the downtown omaha walgreens parking lot, where i waited for approximatly 26 minutes to be rescued by ray.

> got into the omaha zoo for free on my bday...not for any special reason, just because we walked in without paying. (bad ass, i know)

>managed to get a flat tired without even driving my car for 3 days....i have my ways. but got tire fixed and made my way home on wednesday. that was a sad day

other than that, highlights included ray's motorcylce, another original birthday present, gettin 3 'happy birthday song' voicemails, a great new cd, a pretty amazing view from the 'lookouts' , and the addition of one very special shirt to my wardrobe....a 20th birthday to be remembered

i'm sure i forgot stuff there...oh well, i tried. sorry

oh sidenote: in a random moment of impulsiveness i got my ears pierced again, can i get a hooha for double piercings??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

yes sir, its that time of year again...

today i find myself waving goodbye and gazing longingly at my teen years. twenty-somethings here i come.

happy birthday to jamie, happy birthday indeed

LEO

ya know, i try hard not to buy into the whole horoscope thing...but when it gives me crap like this - its hard not to just slap down my credit card and scream SOLD!


"Look for a little drama to go a long way, as the past few days of boredom and tranquility are quickly forgotten in an inspiring flash of daredevil behavior."

hi ray!

this is ray's first experience with my little journal here....so i thought i'd give him a proper welcome...cause i know he's gonna read it :)

what can i say about ray...he's amazing. really. and i'm not just saying that. he's one of those people who when i know i'm gonna talk to him, even just online, i get this nervous feeling in my stomach and i cant stop smiling. and when i'm actually lucky enough to be actually with him, i shake the whole time :) ( mean not like, seizuring or nething...) he's a great guy (and i miss him)

alright, well thats that....enjoy ray :)

oh, pete....

on a brighter note, oh fall out boy, how i love thee

"nature shows suck ass, though cobras are pretty sweet. pretty much any animal that has a gang named after it is pretty badass. i would go for an animal combo, like a bear that carried a cobra- total unstoppable force. give that thing wings and humanity is fucked." -(pete wentz, fall out boy)