my IQ...(according to tickle tests)

my IQ is 122...idk if thats good or not :S what does that say about my IQ?

Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind.



PS - we rallied the troops today in defense of our beloved Tate...and i believe we came out victorious...so ha

stupid blogger

i hate blogger....i typed a whole entry! a big one, full of stuff
and now its gone...gone where u ask? idk, ask blogger...grrr

so, now i'm just mad...totally uninspired.

lets see....i'm really sad that schools almost over. dont get me wrong, classes could've ended weeks ago for me. but theres people here i really care about, and i dont want to lose them - and i'm scared i'm gonna. sad times.

okay, enough of that

volleyball...wasnt quite as embarrassing as i had anticpated...but it was close. haha but we must me teaching them well...cause they pointed out stuff we did wrong.

3rd grade girl after our game - "i didnt hear u call 'mine'"
me - "u didnt? oh...well...i did." :S busted

we also had our first games on monday...the kids that is. ever witnessed a 3/4 grade volleyball game? something like this....

serve attempt, net
roll ball under net
serve attempt, net
roll ball under net
serve attempt, over, ball shanked either across the gym or into another childs face
serve attempt, net

for an hour. fun....i'm earning my pay damnit...and i get to do it all over again tomorrow. whoop whoop

All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you too

- All I Want, Joni Mitchell

wow, sorry

so i havent posted in a real long time...sorry. now i have a ton to talk about and its probably gonna be rushed and not as good. but i'm makin an effort to update u guys on the happenings in my life :)

i got a job! haylee, teal, and myself are coaching youth volleyball (yes, volleyball) at the rec center. i know what ur thinking, i have no absolutely no business coaching vb. but hey, is it my fault the rec doesnt do a background check to see if the coaches they're hiring have actually played more then 1 yr of vb? i think not. however, it seems this might backfire on me tomorrow...because the main lady informed us that we would be puttin on a little 'demonstration' - and then she informed the little kids that we were gonna show them some "really good vb". *gulp* i'm preparing myself to be rather embarassed tomorrow. haha, oh well...i'm gettin paid.

here's on odd tidbit of info. lately, peope i know are having weird dreams about me. for example...
> teal dreamed that she was holding my engagement ring (for those of u who dont know, im soo not engaged)
> my roommate haylee had a dream that i had a baby...at school. like, it lived in our dorm with us.
> laura, my suitemate, had a dream that i was pregnant

so these were weird, but we all hang out all the time..so its not completely bizzare that their brains would be thinking alike

enter the kicker....last week in bio, amanda (this girl we only know from class) walks in and is like "jamie i had the weirdest dream about you!" to which i joking reply "it wasnt that i was pregnant was it?" and she gets this surprised look on her face and nods. she's like "yeah that was it!" hmmm....idk what to make of this

this past weekend was probably the best weekend of 2005. this weekend rocked hard. a) i got to go home, which could be enough said...but it gets better. b) NEW FOUND GLORY CONCERT. fan-freakin-tastic. i had the best time. hearing them sing the songs you love in person, i cant even explain it. when they sang "I Dont Wanna Know" there was a mere ONE PERSON in between me and the bar in front of the stage. i could have died happy. nothing compares.
there are a few bands i still need to see live (not want to...NEED to) this list includes, but is not limited to
> Blink 182 > Relient K
> Greenday > Our Lady Peace

also this weekend i hung out with my old friends Kevin, Pat, and Casey. kevin sat behind me in ap bio junior year and pat sat next to him. they all go to und so i hung out at their dorms pretty much all weekend. between the concert and hangin out with those guys i acquired a mere 9 hrs of sleep fri night thru sun morning. ouch. when i left their dorm on sat night (technically, sunday morning) the sun was coming up. oops :)
i met some of their friends from school too. one of these friends i have become quite taken with :) his names nick...but thats another post. (teal, i'm tryin to control my giddyness...promise) haha

well...i think thats about it for now. oh wait, sorry for the series of depressing posts. i let myself get sulky. but i'm much much better now :) all smiles and warm fuzzies

Both Sides Now

my mind draws a blank every time i try to write in here...i'm now speaking thru quotes and lyrics. heres my latest fav lyrics (i was introduced to them by Love Actually...wow, i could not love that movie ne more then i do)


Both Sides Now
(JONI MITCHELL)

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and they snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show
And you leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love
Really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way

Oh but now old friends they're acting strange
And they shake their heads
And they tell me that I've changed
Well something's lost but something's gained
In living every day

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life
I really don't know life at all

opposing viewpoints

which one is true? or are they both? right now, i'm strongly agreeing with the first one...but i'll keep an open mind


Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. -Rose Walker


Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more.
--Erica Jong

useful....

so the comment was made tonight -- "if u you have argue for ur usefulness, its probably not there" --

good point.

have u ever just felt really useless? like, the world around you would just keep moving in ur absence? (okay this sounds suidical or something....i mean like, for example...this summer when we all go away) i dont really know how to explain this.

another thing (which i wont mention) was said tonight that just got me thinking of the past. the near past...and how much i miss it; how much i took it for granted.

oh well....here's my new quote - which if i'm lucky will motivate me :)

I demolish my bridges behind me...then there is no choice but to move forward.
-Firdtjof Nansen

random stuff i found....

that makes me laugh -- the first ones is my fav

a lot of teachers are switching to printed course manuals instead of books. They're exactly like books, only poorly-made, more expensive, and not able to be returned at the end of the year. Why don't you just write "bwahahaha!" in huge letters on my receipt?

- Matt Boor’s Ah, College

Excuses. It sucks to give an honest excuse for missing class and your professor telling you he's "heard it too much before." Why does an excuse's popularity matter? It won't make it any less true. Maybe you'd be better off with creative lies? "I'm sorry I didn't come to class yesterday. I was dead." - Matt Boor’s Ah, College

For the rest of the week before Spring Break, I guess I'll just have to try and stay focused and finish my work before I get to enjoy myself. And that's going to be tough, because in the middle of that last sentence I actually stopped writing, slept eight hours, and saw a movie.

- Matt Boor’s Ah, College

I was stressed about studying, so I talked to one of my professors. He suggested I go pick up a pamphlet on finals stress management. Well, that solves the problem of not having enough to read...

-Matt Boor’s Ah, College

well...

so there's a couple reasons i havent wrote nething lately....

a) my computer doesnt really like me, and wasnt feelin me writing in my blog and 2)i just didnt (and dont) have nething to say...i'm w/o words

those combined as a sign that i just wasnt supposed to write
so since i have nothing to say, i'm just gonna put a few random quotes and lyrics and what not that describe how i feel lately...alright here goes

I always waste my time just wondering what the next man thinks of me....

What do u do when u look in the mirror, and what u see is why he’s not here

I've hung around you
It's getting tough
I think I'm gonna break down soon
I'm so sorry
Got to the station a little too late
Such a shame
We just missed the train

I dont want the sympathy
Its cool you didnt want me
Sometimes you cant go back

Ever since I've known you, It just seems you're on my way

this last one is just something i've been thinking.... "how do u let urself miss out on something that felt so right? something that made u feel okay again?"

oh F word

and just when u think u finally figure things out....life kicks u in the face again


this is fast becoming a really tired story line in my life