you're just to good to be true...cant take my eyes off of you

dammit...just when u think your heart has been crushed beyond repair; HE shows up. and he is just, wow. so nice and funny, and NICE and FUNNY. just genuine. and it scares me outta my mind. the way i feel around him is wondermous - happy, safe, real - but new relationship stuff is scary and unknown. plus there's a lot of distance (about 6 hrs) inbetween us. damn geography. so i dont even know if we'll be able to start something. all i know for now is that i truely enjoy his company and i want to make him laugh

we went back to high school today, mrs. berglund's class, to talk about our new 'college lives'. it was a blast! soo much fun to see everyone again and catch up and here stories from everyone's new home/life. strange being in the building tho. it made me feel old. i think i'm more comfortable with myself now then i was in highschool - not that id be hard. confidence wasnt exactly in my corner back in HS. oh well, things change, life changes, people change. i'm realizing that more and more. i'm sad that i might have to let people go. more then sad, i hate it. i need to figure out a way around it. its a problem and all problems have solutions, so i'll figure it out.

all in all tho, today was a super day! i saw old friends, saw derrick, finished the 'art project' gift for the g-rents, and finished my book The Lucky Bones; which, by the way, was amazing! go read it